Rewatching Fault in Our Stars. The last time I watched the film was with a friend of mine. Kolya and I had planned to watch it together but never got around to it. I had planned to go see it again with him afterwards however this didn’t end up happening unfortunately… As I re-watch the film now, I can not even begin to explain how different the experience is for me. I see death in a completely different light which makes this movie, although sad, extra special to me. I especially love Augustus’ metaphor when he places a cigarette between his teeth but never lights it,
"It’s a metaphor, see: you put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you don’t give it the power to do its killing". -Gus
Hazel’s eulogy for Augustus also was so beautiful so I thought I’d just leave it here…
“My name is Hazel. Augustus Waters was the great star-crossed love of of my life. Ours was an epic love story, and I won’t be able to get more than a sentence into it without disappearing into a puddle of tears. Gus knew. Gus knows. I will not tell you our love story, because like all real love stories, it will die with us. As it should. I’d hoped that he’d be eulogising me, because there is no one I’d rather have. I can’t talk about our love story, so I will talk about math. I am not a mathematician, but I know this. There is an infinite between 0 and 1. There’s .1 and .12 and .112 and an infinite collection of others. Of course there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. A writer we used to like taught us that. There are days, many days of them, when I resent the size of my unbounded set. I want more numbers than I’m likely to get, and God, I want more numbers for Augustus Waters than he got. But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. You have me a forever within the numbered days, and I’m grateful.”- Hazel
It was a pleasure.
best six second exchange i have ever seen in my life
Kolya once made me watch this video and it opened my eyes. I’m studying to be a teacher and it made me really think, what will I be really teaching the people of tomorrow. Am I encouraging them to really live now or am I reproducing the same standard person that society expects? How can I influence a child in such a way, that I can encourage them to be extraordinary and live fully now?
Let’s address the elephant in the room. It sits directly in front of me, screaming from every post I’ve written but remains unmentioned. It’s name is grief. If you hadn’t gathered by now, this blog is completely dedicated to my close friend and the most influential person I’ve ever met in my life,…
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RIP Talia Joy Castellano
August 18, 1999 - July 16, 2013